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Living life as a teenage witch is a lot like being
the invisible man, unless of course you live in a community where witches are
widely accepted, then you’re doing fine. Being different all my life, knowing
things weren’t quite as mundane as everyone saw, to grow past the age of
imaginary friends and still see apparitions, it is a lonely existence. Even now,
as an adult, 19, I am still very alone. I have a boyfriend, he’s wonderful and
understanding, but he doesn’t really believe in the same things I do, so that
part of my life is more quiet when he’s around.
I have always been a solitary witch. I don’t
think that a group of people, unless you find the right people, can really all
have the same concept of what magic is. Magic is such a personal thing. But back
to the solitary-ness. There are many people out there, I used to be one of them
(still am, in a way) who believe they are totally isolated because of their
beliefs. Young witches are especially vulnerable to loneliness when their
religion is practiced in secret, perhaps because their parents don’t believe
in the Craft or because they don’t think their friends will understand. We are
all alone though, fellow children of the universe. We connect very rarely with
people, truly connect, but the rest of the time, we’re on our own. It is in
that aloneness where the higher power can be found.
Knowing those things as a young teenager
though, is a trying and painful experience, but one that makes me who I am
today. I couldn’t really make friends because I couldn’t understand why they
obsessed over clothes, hair and boys. They couldn’t understand why I didn’t.
Quite an impasse.
As a witch these days, I keep my opinions to
myself, unless I know they will be met with an open mind, which is a rare trait
in some people. I have had people become hostile towards me because I am
different, grown adults no less. That’s very much the way it was at school.
Funny how some people just never grow up.
No one else knows what you see, your visions
are yours alone, they are the gifts of the spirit that resides in everything.
Not everyone can see past the veil of normality that society has placed over our
eyes. The magic is not all gone from the world. You just have to know where to
look. Keep that secret locked in your heart and don’t let others spoil the
enchantment for you.
Copyright 2001 - G.
Madar
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